Uh Oh (parts 1&2)

Wow, it’s been almost a week since my last post. I’ve been crazy busy with doing up the house so the time has just gotten away from me. There are a couple of big updates so I’m splitting them up.

 

 

Uh oh part 1 and 2

 

Let’s start with the ‘Uh oh’ that lead on from seeing Woody. I found out that, the night before we got together he had been with another woman on the team. They’d been seeing each other for a couple of weeks and she was under the impression it was turning into a relationship. He’d made her keep it secret by saying if his ex found out it could be messy – which is why I had absolutely no idea. And he didn’t tell me despite knowing I was happy for him to see other people. 

 

But the worst bit is that she had no idea they weren’t serious until I mentioned in conversation at the pub that I was sleeping with him (because I was concussed, not drunk, and running my mouth a bit). I felt terrible when I found out but thankfully she understands that I had no clue and she is just pissed off at him.

 

So basically Woody and I aren’t on great terms any more because he should not have done that to my friend, especially with me. Oh and the ex that would cause all the drama has found out through the grape vine about this anyway.

 

And I’ve been arguing with Louise over who should be apologising to who about some drunken things that were said on her birthday night out. I know now that we can’t see each other again as anything more than friends because her feelings are gonna get hurt because I prefer my relationships and sexual encounters with men to my sexual encounters with her. It sucks and now I’m regretting ever sleeping with her. I hate to have regrets, they serve no purpose other than to upset people.

 

[Something a little happier is coming up in part 3, I promise.]

Changing plans and situations

The past weekend, things really didn’t go to plan. I was meant to be seeing Woody on Friday but had to cancel because of certain monthly things. We rearranged for Sunday but then he cancelled last minute. Thankfully Rik came to the rescue so I ended up seeing him Sunday night and most of Monday (where I was originally seeing Woody) as well as seeing Rik on Tuesday night and Wednesday morning.

 

Sunday turned out to be really good. Once I got over feeling kinda ditched I ended up having a great time with Rik. So much so that the next day I didn’t want to leave him, so brought him to uni with me for a few hours. I should point out that I didn’t end up getting a hell of a lot of studying done.

 

Eventually I had to go home but Tuesday came quickly enough and he came to mine for the first time. We played with hair dye and I laughed so much my face hurt! It was lovely waking up to him too but it sucked saying bye a few hours later…

 

Wednesday kind of spiraled down a bit. Woody ended things with me. I guess he saw us more as single people who were sleeping together rather than a poly relationship, and basically just found someone else. Someone he feels he can settle down with. I guess that’s fair – he is 9 years older than me and I know he’s after a proper family fairly soon, which I am in no way ready to give him.

 

That puts me down to 2! Both of which are unfortunately not local. But I’m making time for James more now. I really can’t wait to see him this weekend. He’s taking me out for dinner then being my date to a friend’s birthday drinks. I hope it’s not too awkward that Woody will also be attending the birthday drinks.. it should be fine though as there are no hard feelings.

 

So that’s my past week! I’m feeling a bit down right now which is to be expected but I know that life goes on and I still have plenty things to enjoy. Laters.

Endings and beginings

Spending time with Andres just got so annoying that I have decided it’s not worth seeing him anymore. He knows things aren’t great but I haven’t actually told him it’s over yet. I was waiting for him to arrange something with me so I could tell him, but it’s been 3 days since we last met and I haven’t heard a thing. I’m kind of thinking that means he feels the same way I do – something’s not right.

 

This is the first ‘ending’ since I started dating in this way and it’s a sign of progress for me to easily be able to stop seeing someone who simply doesn’t make me happy. It helps that I have so many other people in my life now, including partners, friends and family. It makes me feel alright because I know I’m not alone, and don’t have some massive void in my life that needs filling.

 

This ending means I can focus on the new things in my life, such as seeing Rik, and having more time for my working out and socialising. I might be making room in my life for great things and people that I don’t even know about yet!

 

So, onwards and upwards! I’m off to see Rik tomorrow for the second time (3rd if you include when we were first introduced), and very much looking forward to it. I’m going to remember to bring protection this time, so that I can get the full Rik experience *wink wink*. I might even stay the night if it goes really well.

 

Things are also looking up with Woody. I asked him about his recent evasiveness and he assured me that he has just been busy and really does want to keep on seeing me. It sucked that when he tried to make plans with me, I turned out to be too busy this time! But hopefully Thursday or Friday will work for both of us.

 

Oh and I realised Woody is the spitting image of James Marsters, which is pretty cool.